So, everyone, I'm sorry for not commenting or posting anything lately. I have been a bit busy. I have been reading and watching thought.

I went back home for the holiday. It was good, I had fun. It was nothing really like I had expected though. There were lots of things that happened and didn't happen. For one, I had planned to leave a little early but got snowed in, and as soon as I got a chance I left because there was anticipation for another snow storm. This is just unexpected. The last time they saw snow anywhere close to what they got this year was like 50 years ago. I had some plans that never happened, and some things I didn't expect happened. It was just crazy.

Now, it is the beginning of a new year and a time for resolutions. I usually am not a person to make resoulutions, but I have made some changes as a way of starting out my year fresh and NEW. One major trait about myself is that I like to hold on to everything...good or bad. I have decided that there is no better time than now to begin the rest of my life by letting go of a lot of things. There are people, things, and memories that I have held on to for too long now, and I have said GOODBYE to all of that.

Toward the end of the year I was just feeling shitty about myself and my life, it was quite pitiful. I had made a journal about my finind peace with myself and I have. This letting go of the past....things I've held on to for too long....is a part of this new attitude and life. I hope to be able to post some things in the future. This includes some more writing as well as some pictures.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

WOOT, finals are done. Classes are over until next year. Christmas is coming up. Things are going good. It's still the same ol' life but a new perspective. I think I'm even feeling a tinge of inspiration. Hopefully, I can direct this into my writing. Let's face it, it's about time I post something new.

It's taken me a while, but I think I may have finally come to peace with myself. I think it may actually stay this time....or at least I hope it does. I actually don't feel so bad lately. I've made it through all my inner-conflicts, but there are other road-blocks ahead. I need to be strong, if not for myself, for others. I don't mean this in the inevitable way...that there are always road blocks and detours in life. I mean there are actual, forseeable, conflicts in the very near future. This isn't the time for my petty, emotional shit. So, I have gotten my shit together just in time (which is usually how it works).

It will all work out...I know it will...It always does.

Wooohoooo!!!! So, I went out today and I did all my Christmas shopping, I am so happy. This is the first time that I have ever done all my shopping in one day, and have my shopping finished this early. I'm usually one of those people who's still shopping a week before Christmas.

After I finished and came home I was amazed at how much we are willing to spend on gifts to give to others for Christmas. Basically, the majority of my shopping was for my kids (yep...all 5 of 'em), so I don't feel regretful over the money. Yet, I know that in 6 months most of their gifts will be broken, lost, or they will no longer have an interest. But, this is how it was for our parents, and this is how it shall be for us. I don't care though, I'm just glad that I have no more shopping to do. I AM DONE.

Now, I have to prepare for the next important part of the holiday. THE COOKIES. Kids can't enjoy the holidays w/o the cookies (well cookies and natillas....a type of desert kinda like a pudding...a common hispanic/spanish desert where I'm from).

HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL.

Te quiero mas que sol.
Te quiero mas que la luna
Te quiero mas que las estrellas.
Te quiero mas que los arboles.
Te quiero mas que las flores.
Te quiero mas que la lluvia.
Te quiero mas que vida.

TE NECESITO.
TE AMO.

Just some thoughts I had about the one who may never read this. Sorry to those of you who do not understand it, since English is usually my language of preference. I just thought this was best suited in Spanish....not sure why.